THE VERY LITTLE TEST FROM HIM

A few days dah berlalu. Sakit yang jatuh hari tu masih lagi terasa. Mana taknya, from right hip, the pain moves to my right leg. Terasa kaki berat sebelah. Sakit bertambah lagi. Right hand pun rasa sakit. And worst, sakit kat right hip naik ke tulang belakang. Terasa longgar skru2 kat pinggang dan tulang belakang. Nak duduk lama2 pun tak boleh. Tak sampai 5 minit dah lenguh. Even nak baring sekalipun kena slow2, dah tak boleh lompat sesuka hati ke tempat baringan. Sedih sangat rasa bila Allah tarik nikmat sihat tu.. tapi takpe. Ni ujian kecil dari Dia. Sabar.

Umi bawak pegi mengurut dengan sedara. Masa tu ya Allah Tuhan saja yang tau sakitnya bila makcik tu urut kat bahagian yang sakit. Katanya part yang kena tu lebih panas dari tempat lain. Urat kat situ dah demam sebab jatuh. Lepas mengurut dah rasa ringan sikit. Tapi sakit lagi. Rasanya cam sakit tulang. Then, yesterday I had an x-ray to scan my backbone. Actually, I was hoping the doctor to detect certain parts kalau2 boleh dikaitkan dengan backpain yang ditanggung selama ni. However, none. Doctor said nothing is wrong with my backbone, only nampak bengkok sikit. Maybe tu salah satu sebabnya. I always forget to sit straightly with right body posture. Wuwu.. umi pun selalu bebel time tengok saya duduk bongkok. Pasni kena aware time nak duduk.

Tapi saya tak puas hati dengan result x-ray tu. Rasa memang ada something wrong somewhere la. Rasa nak buat x-ray lagi sekali. Tapi sah2 umi tak bagi sebab tak elok x-ray banyak kali. Now, I only can do some preventions and precautions; kena jaga body posture time nak duduk, baring, amik barang kat lantai and even nk sujud time solat. Then umi suruh amalkan minum susu kambing Hi-Goat tu everyday. She said it really works for her sebab umi pun sakit belakang jugak. I don't mind if kena minum susu berliter-liter sehari pun as long as my pain can be cured.

Actually backpain ni dah lame menjadi igauan hidup saya. I couldn't remember since when. Maybe dah setahun lebih kot. Mula-mula sakit and lenguh biasa je. Lama-lama the pain becomes worse and worst. Dah tak boleh bawak barang berat. Even bawak laptop sendiri pun kadang2 terpaksa bear with the pain. Nak jalan lama-lama pun tak boleh. Jangan harap la kalau nak window shopping kat mall tu lama-lama. Mula la rasa lenguh belakang even jalan lenggang lenggok tak bawak barang pape. Other than that, dah tak boleh drive lama-lama. Bila lama sikit mula la encik tulang belakang buat hal. Another thing, why I always pile up my clothes in the whole week and wait for until weekend to wash them with washing machine. The reason is, I can't do handwash in a large quantity except for my tudungs and other stuffs that shouldn't be washed using machine. Tu pun dah rasa lenguh pinggang and backpain. It's not about laziness actually. hmm

To my dear friends, I'm sorry for always bothering you guys.

Sometimes, I need you to help me carry the things.

Sometimes, I need you give me little massages when I can't stand with my pain.

Sometimes, I need you to understand my condition that I can't accompany you to go out for a walk or shopping.

Sometimes, I can't help you when you need my help.

and sometimes, I really hope that you could feel how the pain is and how I wish to do everything together with you guys. It's just I can't. Bukan saja2 nak mengada atau bermanja. Bukan saja-saja tapi terpaksa.

If anyone has any suggestions on how to reduce my pain, kindly please share with me okay. And please do me a favor. Doakan saya sihat sentiasa dan panjang umur. Doakan saya boleh lompat sana-sini and cergas sentiasa. Doakan saya sentiasa kuat, tabah dan redha dengan ujian kecil ini. Dan doakan saya agar diberi kesempatan untuk jadi seorang zaujah dan ummi buat zuriat2 saya kelak. InsyaAllah. :)